depression revised

Depression is my obsession revised

Dion Ball
P.4


    Depression is one emotional word that carries a humans feeling throughout the way they act. It's amazing of how much it can change a person’s life. In my life, it comes up when it has to deal with my mom, sister, girls, and religion. I don’t know what to really do at this point. Help me

     Girls are one of the main reasons why my emotion is like this. I am so confused of what I actually do wrong. It's a giant build up of questions that I don't know and questions that sike me out. Am I attractive? Do I fall for a girl to quick? Is my personality and actions ruin my chances with every girl I meet? Is my patience to short to find the one? The list can go on and on. I can never get a real answer because I'm getting opinions. Ever since Mrs. Magz, Tyler Crawford, Kyle, and my family tell me there advise with care, I have felt that I have changed deeply. What can I do to change this illness? Help me.

     My family that I treat with no respect gets to me so easily. My mom still gets me what ever I want even though I have a job. I will constantly argue with her over the most ridiculous things. She is trying to teach me a valuable lesson right now, " Positive things happen to positive people." My sister that is raising a family with two kids takes me anywhere I please. I always leave the car with out saying thank you. I need to take action and not run all over my sister and use her for stupid things. Such as, going to dance clubs, football games, gym, ECT. What can I do to stop this from occurring? Help me.

     My relationship with god is even drifting away in front of my eyes. I always blame him for my losses and ask him why did you take my dad away from me at the age of 3? Why are my relationships with girls and family terrible? I lost avid the one thing that mattered to me. My young life leader Nyk has been helping me the most and told me the greatest piece of knowledge I learned. "God has a plan for you". I believe and trust this statement one hundred percent. Does god believe me when I say this? I hope he forgives me for acting dumb. Help me.

       " Depression is my obsession. Lost and found being tossed around. My heart is breaking... every beat it's aching. Tired of getting hurt every time... I wish and pray you will be mine. Trust me I'm the one... let's go have some fun. I'm so confused as we speak; I'm drowning in this murky creek. Thinking of what I did... realizing I'm just a kid... I'll be waiting for you...I love you..."- Dion Ball